I really needed the lead again. I know that sounds greedy or ungrateful, but I barely got to enjoy having the lead in Twilight: The Musical last fall….I only knew I was the lead for ten hours before the opening night curtain, and then I got to enjoy it for all of three days. Definitely not enough.
Half the fun of being the lead is the build-up: acting the star at rehearsals, having your cast mates look up to you, knowing they’re actually criticizing you behind your back…When you’re the lead, you own the show. You’re at practically every rehearsal. If you’re not in a scene, it’s to give others a small chance to shine; it’s not like you were overlooked. After all, you’re integral to the plot.
But I missed all that. Whatever role our director/English teacher Mr. Ellison picked, I needed to win the lead so I could savor it for real this time, and add it to my application to Yale School of Drama, where I intended to go after finishing junior and senior year and four years of undergraduate college.
I know, there are plenty of good parts that aren’t the lead. Every drama teacher or director I’ve ever known says every part is important, even the ensemble, and there is no such thing as a bit part, only bit players. Well, I’ve had plenty of bit parts and believe me, being the lead is a hundred times better.
If you’ve ever had the lead in a show, you know exactly what I mean.